Life is pretty wonderful as a family of 4. The kiddos are at a great age where they are independent enough to do things on their own, but they still need their mama for lots of snuggles and kisses. I go back and forth on wanting a 3rd child. I feel like things are good with 2. Isla is off to Kindergarten next month (*sob*), Brevin starts 2 year old preschool in September, and hopefully he will be potty trained soon (please, GOD). As the kids get older, we get busier and things have been getting easier in a lot of ways.
We had a pregnancy "scare" last month (technically Andy was the only one scared). I was pumped! I was 6 days late and even though the pregnancy tests said 'negative', I felt pregnant. Anyway, when I discovered I wasn't pregnant there was definitely some sadness but also a sense of relief on my end. Very confusing. Deciding to have 3 is so tough. Going from 1 to 2 was a no brainer. But 2 to 3 seems tricky. Suddenly I feel like I waited too long, when previously I felt like it would have been too soon. Seriously, the time just never felt right. We've either been too broke, I've been too out of shape, too tired, and/or too busy. And now as I'm getting older, it's really either now or never.
I've decided that I will be happy either way. I'm so blessed to have 2 beautiful, sweet, hilarious, healthy and smart children. If I'm fortunate enough to get pregnant without actively trying, then I will know it was meant to be. But I think we will lay off the trying, and just see what happens. When Andy turns 35 (in February) he is officially done. Closing up shop for good. Having an end date is very comforting. What is meant to be, will be!!
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Oh I can totally relate and understand. It is not easy to close that door and say that you are officially done and your family is complete however at the same time it is kinda nice to just know that you can start to truely focus on the future and not worry about if you should grow your family. I had a very hard time officially saying we were done and some days I still have that little wish that I could do the baby thing one more time (although I dont want to be pregnant, just wnat a baby dropped off at our door)! But then I look at how easy it is to go do whatever I want with my two boys as they are older now and I am happy with where we are! You are right, whatever happens is what is meant to be! You have two beautiful kids already but one more could never hurt! Have fun with the stress free not trying, sounds glorious, and if it happens you need to move back to MN so I can get some baby snuggles (Lisa is going to be sick of me trying to still her child by then anyways)!
Your children are just adorable and perfect, so I can imagine the tugs at your heart for a possible third. I haven't been through this myself yet, but it seems like you are taking a good approach. And I've learned that life is sometimes easier if you are open to all possibilities and seeing what happens vs trying to plan it out exactly.
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