Baby Boy Troubles

I am the worst blogger ever.  I have tons going on lately, so it isn't for lack of writing material.  I just don't spend much time on the computer anymore.  I'm starting to feel guilty about not documenting more of my pregnancy though.  I wrote a lot when I was pregnant with Isla, and I posted belly pictures throughout.  I have yet to even take 1 belly pic yet, and I'll be 23 weeks on Friday!  Yikes.  I better get going. 

My little man is doing well.  He is very active and especially enjoys Mountain Dew.  We just  picked out Sawyer's bedding and decided on a theme for his nursery...MONKEYS! 

I like the bedding...but don't love it.  But I didnt' love anything, so I had to pick something I could tolerate.  I really wanted to do a custom made owl/woodland creature room, but it was pricey.  And that is the same theme as Isla's room and Andy wanted something different.  Whatevs.  Do you know how hard it is to find boy bedding that isn't blue!?  The more I look at the damn monkey head, the more regret I feel.  Good thing everything is still in the bag.  I might have to return this stuff.  Ughhhhh. 

I must admit I've gone back and forth between extreme sadness and excitement about having a boy.  If I'm being totally honest, I didn't want a boy.  I have never really wanted boys.  I don't like cargo pants, and wieners, and sports, and superheros, and dump trucks, and blue things, and guns, and wrestling.  So it's taken me a while to get excited for this baby.  Obviously, I love my little man already, but I don't feel any connection to him.  It's kind of sad actually.  I really wanted another girl.  It sucks having these feelings, because Sawyer can't help that he grew a wiener.  It's all Andy's sperm's fault.  I'm just having a hard time getting excited this time around.  Plus the fact that I'm growing a penis inside of me is so creepy.  The thing that makes having a boy tolerable is looking at all the cute pictures of all the little boys my friends have!  They are all so sweet and adorable...I know my little man will be just the same!  Plus I do love that little boys tend to be mama's boys...and since Isla is a totally a daddy's girl, this will even things out!

But I think my little man might either be a nudist or a cross dresser, considering I have been all over searching for clothes for him and have only bought a few things.  Of course I buy Isla something each time I'm out, because I can't resist girl clothes!!  Please tell me why 97% of clothes have animal heads or a sports related theme?  I have no problems with either of these...but I'm looking for some variety!  The only place I have found clothes that I LOVE is Nordstrom.  And I can't afford to pay $25 for a baby polo shirt.  Although Grandpa Dave did buy Sawyer his first pair of non cargo, awesome little plaid shorts at Nordstrom the other day.  The cuteness nearly killed me. 

So yeah.  That's what's been on my mind lately.  Having a little boy is clearly very stressful for me!!  I don't even know if I like the name Sawyer anymore!  This pregnancy is just SO DIFFERENT for me in every possible way.  My little man better stop giving me such a hard time though!  I can't keep spotting or I may end up on bedrest!!  I don't even want to think about that.  I'm actually not tooooo worried about it (shocker!) but I have to limit my activity a little bit and hope it doesn't continue. 

Okay, enough rambling.