Ugh. The word obese grosses me out. I'm officially obese according to my wellness check. My BMI is ridic. Anyway, I totally knew that, but having it confirmed sucks. Surprisingly though, my health is pretty good otherwise. Being technically obese is not fun. My back has been killing me, I've had problems with my heel, and (of course) none of my clothes fit! I've been borrowing all of Abb's clothes when I go out and wearing only sweats when I'm at home.
Being someone who has always been skinny, I now feel like I'm trapped in a fat suit. This enormous body was never in my realm of thinking. I just did not think it was possible for me to gain this much weight. Gaining weight was always hard for me to do...it just didn't happen, no matter how much crap I consumed. Now I'm the person I never thought I'd be. I hardly recognize myself!
Losing weight requires self discipline, something I lack almost entirely. Abb has been all about working out lately. Usually a workout buddy can totally motivate me, but I've been SO TIRED all of the time. It's really a vicious cycle, because I know I'd have more energy if I worked out.
So enter motivation. When I am back to an acceptable weight, 130-135 (funny how I found this weight unacceptable when I weighed this prior to my pregnancy) we will start trying for our next baby. I'm hoping that will be motivation enough!
In typical Betsy fashion, I'm far too hungover to do anything about this weight loss today...so I'm going to indulge in Wendy's and possibly Little Caesars.
Tomorrow. I seriously will start. If I can survive this hangover.
7 years ago
2 comments:
Betsy you are too funny, Wendy's and Little Ceasars in one day while talking about losing weight! I can totally relate, I have gained a lot of weight lately and I need to somehow find the motivation to lose it!! Maybe we can both motivate each other to stay on track. And at least you can say I just had a baby, my baby is about to turn 4 so I have no excuse.
I can be in the weight loss motivation club too. But, I don't have the excuse of a pregnancy to make me feel slightly better about being so big. Now that it's summer time, hopefully I will feel more like getting off my butt and doing something.
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